It is dark in the workshop, but what light there is streams in patches through the windows. Cobwebs coat the wrenches, the cans of spray paint and the rungs of an old wooden chair where Matt Peters used to sit. A stereo plays country music, left on by the renter who now uses the shop.
“It smells so good in here,” I say. “Like …”
“Men, working,” finishes Ginnie Peters.
We inhale. “Yes.”
Ginnie pauses at the desk where she found her husband Matt’s letter on the night he died.
“My dearest love,” it began, and continued for pages. “I have torment in my head.”
On the morning of his last day, 12 May 2011, Matt stood in the kitchen of their farmhouse.
“I can’t think,” he told Ginnie. “I feel paralyzed.”
It was planting season, and stress was high. Matt worried about the weather and worked around the clock to get his crop in the ground on time. He hadn’t slept in three nights and was struggling to make decisions.
“I remember thinking ‘I wish I […]
Are you kidding me? Ever hear about Occam’s Razor? It is like reading about the high suicide rate among ex-NFL players and not mentioning CTE. Farmers are exposed to high levels of herbicides and pesticides including neurotoxins and with GMO’s, extraordinary levels of glyphosate. Studies on those toxic chemicals and neurological studies on those working in the field all show significant neurological damage. Therapy can help but let us not ignore the real problem.